Current location:	My room
Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	My mum crying in the other room.

One Incident and I am Broken
I am not good.
My life is falling apart and I wont stop it because...I am scared for nothing, I am to worried that I will cause a fuss while I curse myself because of what I NEED to do.
People get things wrong but I don't say anything, and when i finally do, its whatever I think they want to hear. People say things that are wrong and I do nothing, people sacrifice things for causes that should never have come about when I could have stopped it. There would be many many people who would say things like "Its not your fault" or "There was nothing you could do" but both of these things are so very very wrong.
I once made a decision to live for myself and only myself, just so I could feel free from it all, if only for a little bit, but then I feel guilty about not doing enough for people.
So much needless pain and anger, but it has love in it also and that makes it more depressing. There is to much pride, independence is a terrible thing if we refuse offered help, and stubbornness.
I need help but I cannot ask for it, this is the closest I can come to actually telling people what I need, not putting on a facade for people to enjoy. I need some help and I feel so bad for asking and I havent even said why.
This rant probably just goes around in circles, I dont feel any better. See you all when I do I guess, If I do.